Sunday, September 7, 2008

Hate (I Really Don't Like You)

Raft3r is incapable of hate, up until now.

Heck, I even try to remain in contact with my exes. If they don't feel like it, it's their issue and not mine.

But there is this one person I currently detest. In fact, it's quickly turning up to be hatred towards that person.

We will now refer to this person as "it." Just to avoid giving out even the slightest clue.

I know it’s wrong to hate people. But in its case, it's really hard not to.

Friends would attest I always find the good in others. The word hatred does not even exist in Raft3r's vocabulary.

So it must have done something horrible to trigger this bad feeling that has remained dormant for a long time.

The thing is Raft3r avoids it like a plague. That's hard to do since we move in the same cycle. I don't even try to make eye contact with it. Conversations with it are short yet polite.

Raft3r finds it hard to pretend that everything's cool when it's not. I'm very transparent that way.

What’s a guy to do?

34 comments:

Sonnet's said...

Ignore it, den. Your anger will suck and dry up your energy. Uwi ka na, dami kong exciting stories:)

Raft3r said...

sonnet's, I'm coming home soon. I miss Pinas so badly.

yummy friend said...

sabi nga somewhere, "you avoid it like a plague, it's worse when it is the plague." hehehe me no like commenting na lang.

by the way, i DO hate. bakit ba kayong mga lalaki, claim nyo you don't? hating is fun. pero lumilipas naman din agad. because it's a strong emotion na pag nag-climax na, yun na. galit nga ako sa isang tao pero hindi nya alam. *evilness*

pero ikaw, congrats, you crossed that line. hehe

bestfriend said...

confront "it"...tell "it" what triggered your anger/hatred...that way you'll have peace of mind...but on the other hand-easier said than done... sige avoid mo na lang sya hopefully mawawala din galit mo

kengkay said...

ignore 'it' - alam ko hindi madali pero bakit kailangang magpa-apekto ka, di ba? so have fun!

Wendy said...

Kill it. Kidding.

If you can't even stand looking at it, I guess it would be doubly hard to tell it to F-off. All that effort...sheesh.

Continue being civil to it, never lose your temper with it, and believe that soon enough, karma will make its life a living hell. Don't give it the time of day by showing it how upset you are with it. It does not deserve that much from you.

moonchild said...

chillax denoy. sabi nga ng beatles
"let it be"

Carol said...

accept that you hate it. then you'll know what to do. hehe. :)

salve said...

kung mabait kang tao at mahaba ang pasensya, pag nagalit sobra. siguro sobrang foul talaga ng ginawa nga taong yun sa `yo kaya ganun na lang ang inis mo.

saka, it's so hard to ignore it especially if you've really been nice to that person and you never suspected this person to do something really, really irritating.

liza said...

tama silang lahat, deadma ka na lang. that's what i do pag talagang naiinis ako, kesa me masabi akong di maganda.

Jella said...

Ummm... sino kaya yun? (,")

Ano kaya gender nung "it" mo? hehehe.

Denoy, either you ignore "it" or tell "it" what's bothering you so you won't have that bad feeling inside. Life, as they say, is too short. Mahirap pag may mabigat sa dibdib mo. I remember my shirt in gradeschool with garfield saying "Make love not war". And I say, let there be love, instead of hate. (,")

Uwi ka na, miss na kita. See you soon Denoy, mwah!

len said...

hate is such a strong a word so i guess "it" must have done something really worst to you, as in to the nth level. hehe
i'd rather that you let "it" know that before hate grows on you.

Lawstude said...

hey, lighten-up, sometimes, life is a b**ch. thanks for the visit dude and i'll be back here to read more of your rants. lols. linked you too.

the donG said...

to see the good things in others is as important as seeing the side that needs to be improved.

Raft3r said...

yummy friend, Hehe. Boys will be boys.

bestfriend, Matagal na ito nasulat. Ngayon lang na post. Hehe

kengkay, I'm having the best time of my life.

wendy, Nyahaha. Pwede ka ba kahit accessory to the crime?

moonchild, I'm chillin'. I'm chillin'. Hehe

carol, Ewan ko nga ba ang pinag-aksayan ko pa ng post ang bagay na ire. Hehe

liza, Dedma. Tama yan. Nyahaha

jella, Ikwento ko sya sayo next time. Hehe

len, Alam nya naman yon. Hehe

lawstude, Linked you up. Thanks.

the dong, Wise words. Indeed.

Sonnet's said...

Before I forget, I tagged you for the nth time. Baka type mong gawin this time, baka lang naman:)

Raft3r said...

sonnet's, Hehe. No promises. I'm off wandering the west coast. I love you.

bena said...

i agree what 'bestfriend' said.. i personally think that confronting 'it' will pave (i hope so) whatever spat you had with 'it'... and tama rin sya na it's easier said than done so goodluck! hihihi.. situation like this is so majorly uncomfortable ha.. but if kaya i-deadma then go! =p

Wendy said...

Sure. Kahit pareho tayong principals, ok rin sa kin. Pakulam ko dito hehehe.

Raft3r said...

bena, Hehe. Mas madami pa naman ako fans kesa sa may ayaw sakin. Nyahaha

wendy, The best ka talaga. Gusto ko yun parang sa The Craft. Yun nalalagas yun buhok. Hehe

tina said...

they say you should not repress your emotions. it's a good thing you are sharing it here cause you are letting it out. feel the hate and let it go. you are not your emotions. they just flow through you. :)

all the best. (and that happens.. hate is not in my dictionary too.. pero whenever i feel something like that... i feel it and let it go.)

Raft3r said...

tina, Thanks. I needed that.

brainteaser said...

Rafter!

Hate is draining. Pero ika nga, minsan hindi mo maiiwasan, lalo na kung talaga namang hindi maganda ang ginagawa.

You can either ignore it or confront it. Muni-muni ka muna, friend. Pero you seem like the kind of a person naman who can get across your message in a nice way. So perhaps maganda rin na kausapin mo siya... so malaman niya na hindi maganda ginagawa niya kasi baka lang hindi niya alam.

In the meantime, try not to get affected. Easier said than done, I know, coz I've been down that road before. Just think you're doing it for yourself, not to 'it.' For your health and peace of mind ba.

Shucks. Seriosong usapan ito. Goodluck! ;-)

Raft3r said...

brainteaser, Usapang seryoso na nga ire. Hehe. Salamat!

hitokirihoshi_kawaii said...

lilipas rin yan...tama sila deadma na lang. time is gold ukol mo na lang energy at time mo sa mga bagay na magiging happy ka...

Raft3r said...

hitokirihoshi_kawaii, Salamat sa payo. Dedma na lang talaga. Hehe

RS said...

lapit ka doon sa tao, kung tao man iyan hehe. hold both shoulders, shake until the eyeballs/head fall/s off, ay anong saya!

Raft3r said...

rs, The best yan suggestion mo. Hehe

Big Eyed Gal said...

Ooohh!! Tsismis!!! Spill!!! Who is it?! Ako ba yan?! Hehe! Sige ka, wala ka nang Fruitella pag balik mo! :-)

Raft3r said...

big eyed gal, Naku. Miss ko pa naman ang candy na yan. Hehe

Anonymous said...

maybe your still into her???!!!
-charlie

Raft3r said...

charlie, No comment. Hehe

ganns said...

I could never hate you, bro!

Raft3r said...

ganns, Ang sweet!